*___ A Walk to Remember

haiz.. its just the beginning of the year.. I'm already mentally exhausted. how long can i sustain? everyday i have to force myself to be stable.. to stay strong.. im feeling soo tired! Piles and piles of unfinished workloads awaiting for me.. with my personal problems.. financial wise im almost immuned but i will feel sad sometimes why i end up in this current situation.. i guess no one can really understand how i actually feel.. frenz telling me go back sch to study (u think i don't want.. but sometimes its just cannot be explained..) recently, i've been asking myself.. am i a lousy person? i seem not to know how to deal with relationshipsss.. it never come to my mind that this can be soo tedious! wo lei le~ -_-" *sob*

i think im going to lose a fren.. i've prepared to let her go.
sorry gals..in the end i still disappoint u two.

i think im going to hurt him.. have been thinking for very long.. if all these haven't take place..
no rehearsal. no costume. no him. then all these wun continue.. and nothing wuld happen.
i don't know if he's true to me but i cant continue this 'coz i will hurt the other him.
and i know i cant betray u, dear..that's y i chose to be frank to you.
i really feel terribly bad to hurt someone regardless how i feel for that person. understand?
haiz~ yuan lai ai qing zhe me shang.
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I admit i was almost tempted by the devils. Im not sure if its you but God thanks for sending meiling and jayce to me.

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anyway tomo i'm going to be "tour guide".. gonna bring a korean guest to tour singapore.. wth~ and i cant get to claim for the day activities. so dinner im going to go for a sumptuous onE! "P
our next conference at cebu is already giving me a big headache!!! i've soo many unfinished work to do! helP~ tats not the end..

anyway last sun.. nv will i believe this will ever happen in my life. I actually went to our citibank CEO's house for DINNER!!!! WOosh! and i was served by him personally. can you imagine.. BBQ being served?! -_-" he has a very competent driver who can cook and another personal butler. cool eh!~ i love his dog.. and he claimed the dog nv bark. his house is a mini version of dao ming si's hse.. why mini becoz he usually stays alone unless his daughter comes over to visit him. His family is all at new york. i think he's from dubai. so u can imagine how RICH is he!!!! -_-" he's a friendly and chatty person i thot. had dinner with the seniors. at lst i thot it wuld be quite awkward but it turned out alright. anyway i was wearing t-shirt and jeans ok. felt so lowly over there.. hahaha.. but alright lah.. :P
btw we got three for our dance out of 14 countries. thats pretty good lor! our efforts din pay off after all :D soo delighted!

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back to rest! tatas~

YYY

GREEN & MUSIC, my life !

Saturday, January 20, 2007