*___ A Walk to Remember

i think i had an offensive comment on someone..jus being very str8 4ward as i've known this person for years.. i hope she understands..break up doesnt mean end of the world.. i know she wun be reading my blog unless someone go and tell her lah.. but i dun mind..coz i already told her wad i felt..i rather say the fact to hurt her than to say sth to console her..i think its really no use..

anyone agrees with me.. i believe when one really learns his/her lesson is when one really get out of the relationship.. the past and able to face it like an outsider..and not when he/she still feels sad and say he/she learns his/her lesson and grows up already esp when he/she claims that he/she knows his/her feelings better than others?

do u understand wad im trying to say? hahah.. ok abit chim..
in summary.. i feel that when someone jus broke up..i can hardly believe he/she can really get out of it soo quickly esp when ur in love with someone soo deeply.. agree? unless its really puppy love! in addition.. he/she cant think rationally most of the time probably due to depression? n tend to think pessimistic.. everything doesnt go the way u want.. u feel really down..cant concentrate on any shit now..right?! i've been thru it as well.. until someone could not tolerate anymore and came to scold me right in my eyes..asked me to wake up all these shit.. ermxx.. indeed the world doesnt owe me anything.. wad for get so depressed over somebody..one has to part with another one day.. wad tian xia mei you bu san de yan xi.. yay tats it! sigh..i believe everyone's facing their own stresses and pressures everyday.. me too..

i cried. wasnt very happy last few days.
but i cried for a reason.
i jus realised my parents are working soo hard yet their children still behave like kids..
i cried becoz i know they muz be very sad.. yet they can be soo strong..
i cried becoz i feel tat i can relieve stress.. its not becoz i cant get to study uni anymore..
shuen thanks for the msg.. yay u're right.. if i have the will i will have my way..
im not afraid not being able to study..
im jus afraid im not able to be filial to my parents and repay everyone who has helped me one way or another..
even i really cant manage to study.. as long as i do sth i like i feel very contented..
i wan pple ard me to be happy..
i shld be happy too..working is not a bad option..coz i get to gain experiences earlier than pple of the same batch..!!

pple misunderstood me for alot of reasons..
some think i really do not wan to study..
or jus plainly too lazy.. or not interested at all..
but the real and only reason is no one's there to help me and i can only rely on myself..
in such circumstances..i can really do nth but wait and work..
dun worry for me.. i will tide thru it one day!
=) hopefully the real serene is going to come back soon!! she jus needs abit more time to recuperate..she will be fine!

AND i really wish everyone ard me to be happy.. even meet with stresses and difficulties muz oso WEI XIAO MIAN DIU okie!! cheers!!! =D cya sooN~

YYY

GREEN & MUSIC, my life !

Tuesday, April 18, 2006