*___ A Walk to Remember

today is a happy day. today is a sad day.

why happy? becoz today my CS dept went "tong le restaurant" @ east coast to have our ~~reunion~~ annual (sorry getting abit blur recently esp aft fever -_-) new year lunch! this is the first and could be the last time for me. anyway i really enjoyed myself today. having fun with them..got lotsa nice food..firstly was the "yu sheng", followed by sharks' fins, steam fish, <--i swallowed a fish bone..OMG!!! but im fine dun worry` chilli BIG prawns, hai sheng with tofu, fried noodle, roast duck and lastly mango pudding <--my favourite! =D~ slurpz~ did i miss out anything? i guess thats abt it! we took photos too..i'll upload once grace-san a.k.a da xiao mei sent it to me.. hee =D my colleagues also say i could be a yearly temp staff..tat means when one of them gets pregnant, i can go over toppan and replace them for her maternity leave.. -_- wad a plan~ lol... oh no..today is a sinful day! ;P

candice..the pregnant colleague came back jus now to visit us, to check mail, to give us the 1st mth new born baby (wad u call tat)..anyway the tarts are delicious!! yummyZ~ and oso to join us for the lunch...she looks radiant! haha.. i hope i will be liddat after i get married =D

hMmm why sad then? well, i hate to say tat.. im in a dilemma..do u ever have this feeling b4 when ur in a r/s --- very happy or very upset? haix!~ now im feeling it! i dun like it..i know i have frequent mood swings..but i dunno whether the prob lies in me or him or its jus the feelings btwn the both of us? haix~ i really cant figure out..i nv deny i dun love him..but how deep is the love? can anyone tell me? why sometimes i cant feel it? hmm..maybe im not fit to be in a r/s or simply im not prepared at all? or isit tat i still cant put down the past? shld i remain single..and give myself more time to think abt it.. or should i jus commit and cont with the r/s? haix..frenz ard me have given me all sorts of advices..but the final decision still lies in me! the prob is i cant even make up my mind! im afraid to lose yet im afraid to cont.. i dun like this feeling at all!! should i take a break? i know 'U' are reading this, give me time k! i dunno whether to face to face talk to u..i dunno whether i can face u now..

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YYY

GREEN & MUSIC, my life !

Tuesday, February 07, 2006