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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
i really dunno wad the hell's happening to me? ermxx.. -_-
my mood fluctuates very easily nowadays.. i think i need to take a break! im tired!~
HELPPPP!!!~~~~
i jus hate myself for thinking too much...
making pple ard me unhappy...
how i wish things ard me.. the decisions i made.. will make everyone happy.. wad can i do make everyone in win-win situations..?
sometimes i really feel quite stressed for nth..
seriously i really think im a typical gal who really.. THINK TOO MUCH! dotxz -_-
just take for example.. aft i saw wad dora posted on the yahoo grp.. i thot to myself.. im not a "zhong se qing you" person rite? how come i feel myself feel so restricted suddenly? i care for both parties i guess.. i wan all ppl ard me to be happy.. i dunwan to lose my frenz neither do i wan to lose him.. jus a small decision.. and i cant even settle it fast! wad happened to me?! he said im indecisive yday nite.. i know its jus a comment..and i dun take it to heart BUT.. seriously im not such a person.. once i made my decision.. its really hard for me to change.. sometimes i feel tired to consider everyone's feeling.. and plan this and that.. the worst thing is end up busy for nth.. i hate to hurt pple's feelings.. but muz i really make sacrifices so that i can make pple happy and yet i dont? wads the meaning of life then? i thot we muz live life to the fullest.. live happily and do wadeva we want!! ??? so what's obstructing me then? hMmm.. **dilemma**
i yearn freedom! jus wanna be FREEEEEE!!!!!! can i?********
YYY
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