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Saturday, May 28, 2005
seriously i think i've been mia-ing for too long.. hmm.. actually im not really sure wad im busy abt.. i have to admit im really living in a world of monotony.. sianz~ *spinning spinning spinning** phewz~
feeling so restless.. seeing everyone soo busy.. preparing for uni stuffs.. haix.. and guess im the onli one working.. slogging for work.. to earn more money.. haix.. was pondering.. wondering wad's my real purpose in life? haix.. feel so lost! sometimes i really feel quite inferior and useless.. imagine someone with such unduly high opinion of oneself.. will feel this way.. i have pride.. this is life i guess?! everyone will meet their own obstacles.. jus depend how they overcome them... sometimes i really feel very tired.. tat i will "hide" my true bubbly cheerful me.. and "display" the hostile annoying me out.. to the extend tat i dun feel talking to others.. haix~
im always wondering wad will my future be like? i've nv feel such insecure b4 in my last 19years of life.. know wad was my ambition? to be an interior designer. but think now.. haix.. USED to be quite anticipated abt my uni course.. quite anticipated abt wad i will do in the future.. work in HR dept.. media.. wowz.. a wide job scope.. hmm.. the other day i was listening to this talk on the radio.. forgotten which channel.. but they were discussing.. "wad is the first criteria when u look for a job? interest or high salary?" if its in the past.. i would choose interest.. but now i dunno~ hmm..
wad is frenship all abt? is frenship more vulnerable than courtship? im sick of all these lah.. i dun wan to care abt it anymore.. everything seems soo fake.. i dunno who and wad to believe.. useless! HATE IT! argH~
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