*___ A Walk to Remember

hmm.. i've read my frenz' blogs..
suddenly have lotsa thots..
isnt it amazing for two people to hav feelings for each other..?
the world is really big..
and yet the two of them can be together..
i cannot really describe this feeling..
i really think its amazing..
for two people to fall for each other..

wad is security.. and wad is insecurity?
how do we gauge?
i think when the time comes.. we will know..
haix.. i oso dunno wad im toking.. lol..
beating ard the bush i supposed.. haha.. -_-"
im soo sianz.. feel soo restless...
feel soo.. hmm.. maybe wad im saying now... insecure?!
i oso dunno y..
when im with yj.. i oso felt very insecure..
tats y we broke off..
but now.. why m i still lidat?
i feel soo tired..
when im with taufiq.. or shane..
they dun give me this kind of feeling..
perhaps... hmm.. i oso dunno how to say lah.. -_-'' haha..

haiyoz..
tomo is v day..
seriously i've NV spent v day with my bfs b4..
becoz they appeared aft tat..
and we ended b4 tat.. haha.. dotxz~
hopefully tomo there's a surprise for me?! hmm..
wahha.. im thinking too much..
nvm.. love is beautiful for once..
but frenship is forever..

seriously lah..
i think in a relationship..
one muz give and take..
one muz learn to love.. and learn to tolerate..
nothing is perfect..
and nothing will always follow the way u want..

i fell. but i stood up again.
tat makes me stronger.
however, tat scar will always be there.
memories will always be with me.
so i carry on..
tats life!

i've the same prob as mel..
i understand how she's feeling now..
but i dunno n dunwan to console him..
coz my concern will oni make her sadder..
same to shuenky n shaun..
and even to vanessa..
i think u all will know much better than me..
this day will come..
and u have to try to find ur way out.. to solve this prob..
no one can help u but oni urself.. and the other party..
u will feel sad definitely..
well, i've learnt something..
ur frenz will give advices..
but if u think its not appropriate..
plz think twice b4 u do anything abrupt!

i regretted~
but at least i know tat we cant share the bad times tog..

i will wait for the one..
the one who can lend me his shoulders to lean on..
lend me his hands and guide me to our paradise..
a place tat he can share with me my joys n sorrows..

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my head aches.
i think i mentioned b4..
something hit my head..
it hurts.. seriously it hurts..
nv been so painful b4..
seems like a part of my memories is gone..
i cant really rem...
i oso dunno wad i cant rem..
blur.
isit a good sign?! hopefully it is.

i dreamt tat i lost my memories.
i was unconscious.
i couldnt rem a single shit.
but i could hear murmuringz ard me.
wad does it imply?
will tat day comes?..
isit better tat i lost all my memories..?!
hmm.. im selfish..
if tat day comes..
i wish to rem the people i wish to rem..
i wish to rem the good memories..
sighzz~

YYY

GREEN & MUSIC, my life !

Sunday, February 13, 2005