*___ A Walk to Remember

guess who i met today?
think u guys will be shocked..
yah.. its him.. tang yunjun!!!
out of a sudden rite? but why?!
hmm..seriously..
i dunno why i got tat gut to ask him out..
seriously i dunno..
but maybe its becoz i really cherish our frenship though we cant be lover..
it was a sudden decision..

yday as usual i was online..
chatted with sh and jw online..
watching mg1 vcd at the same time lah..
then they left..coz tomo got sch..
the rest on the msn were all aslp..
except for yj.. and i knew if he slp he wun online one lo..
soo i msged him..
asked him to chat with him..pei me lah..
and he did..
we chatted for awhile.. n he got tired..
he left at abt 2plus i guess..
at tat moment i wanted to ask him the thing tat's always on my mind..
but it was too late.. he left!

i oso dunno y im soo brave lah..
or maybe u call me thick skinned..
i went to sms him..
he actually say ok lehz..
im soo happy.. coz i think im rather silly..
dunno scared for wad lah..
but its always lidat.. -_-"
so today we met.. oni a short while.. from 330-6..
as usual dear rene is always late.. ahhaa..
so changed the meeting time to 4..
actually we met oni for 1 1/2hr..
as i meeting zt to do her survey aft tat..

throughout the meeting with him...
i can sense the awkwardness lah.. though he denied..
im trying very very very hard to act normal..
but there's still the LONG "awkward" pause over there..
y cant he jus treat me like other gals or even guys..?
hahhaa.. i wanted to ask him alot of things but i jus couldnt speak up..
we chatted everything except for our past..
it was soo disappointing..
esp when i knew the truth..
the truth of my bdae pressie tat he gave me..
maybe i really think too much..
sometimes i oso hate myself of being so "zhi yi wei shi"
i always wadeva i think is right..
and nv stand in other pple's shoes to think for them..
i hate my stubbornness!

frankly i thot we still stand a chance..
i nv give up.. though i told glenn to tell him i did..
until today..
from now onwards..
i hav really really given up hope on him!

he may be the guy i love alot..
but tats all in the past..
Pok: i know u dislike him.. no matter how much u say abt him.. i will still try to defend for him.. the day has come..! the real serene has waken up! dun worry.. of coz i'll find a guy tat loves me more~ i promise! i will nv make myself soo depressed and sad anymore.. i've learnt my mistakes..

i really love this gal.. she's always been there for me when i needed her most.. and she really understand me soo well.. its jus like a mirror for me to see my mistakes.. and today is so qiao.. i actually saw her on the bus.. u're my angel!! wahaha.. i love u! heez~

YYY

GREEN & MUSIC, my life !

Monday, January 03, 2005